One Year

As I sit at work (yes, I know) and think about a year ago today and what I was doing I get so excited. Around this time, I was getting ready to leave for Dallas and go meet a guy that I had been talking to over the internet and phone. Yes, I know...crazy. The peace over me was incredible and I was not in the least bit nervous. Well, of course that guy turned out to be my fiance about a month and a week or so later, and I will mary him on August 29, 2009. Let me tell you about him......

Love. He does this without question, or it seems this way. I have never been so loved in my life. I have never felt so beautiful and captivating. I am completly honest when I say this.

Patient. Wow, does he have these. I am sure he would have liked to kill me at points, probably at some point every day, But he kindly, lovingly, and happily, lets me be me and helps me through it the way God shows him. He tells me when I am wrong, lets me be mad, but not for long. Makes me talk about things, that I don't want to in order for us to get past our arguments. How amazing.

Incredible. Everything about him is incredible. Everything. Even things I don't like....still incredible. I have come to love the things I used to not like. Those very things, make him who he his. His personality, grace, love, mercy, smile, gentleness...all incredible.

Does this sound like I am describing how God is? Yes, it does to me. That is what a marriage relationship is suppose to be like (engagement too). Marriage is the closest symbol that God created for us to be able to even feel about .01% of the way God loves us. Marriage is set up by God, between a man and woman to be a picture of how God cares for us. We as a couple should strive for this perfect love, everyday. Just as God does without even thinking about it. You think, wow. I feel loved but God's love runs deeper than any earthly love you can feel. That is amazing, incredible, and exctiting.

I am so proud and so blessed to say that I have a Godly, Christian, amazing, man to spend the rest of my life with. To laugh with, cry with, to honor, love, respect, and show that he has what it takes to be my lover and father of my children. I get this. I have this. I am so thankful. I could not imagine my life without him and I get sick at the thought of losing him. I smile at the thought of him alone or him being goofy, him being mad at me (bc its so cute), him being a boy and doing boy things, him being a dentist and getting to do what he loves. It all makes me smile. It makes me thankful to my heavenly Father for allowing me to experience this and teaching me how to be just as great as he is. I never understood what people meant when they said "he/she makes me a better person" but I get it. I feel it. He does this for me.

Todd Michael, you are my everything.